i surfed the blogs.
i went to yumey's
i went to poh wei's
i went to.. no one's.
i saw yumey's blog.
i saw poh wei's blog.
i went to open the windows live messenger.
scrolled up and down.
no one to talk to.
i went back to the blogs.
started reading
and i saw the mae jeen post on yumey's blog.
there's this big sigh deep inside the heart.
i miss them.
and the days after UPSR having fun.
hating her.
smacking the table and scolding the cards
and laughing at the guy infront of me that he lost.
i never really played with the girls.
they are WAY fast weih.
sitting beside poh wei, behind yu wei, front of wei jing, and ee min beside wei jing.
we sit in twos.
yeah.
scribbling on almost everywhere.
bullying wei jing ( the best thing to do in school when bored. xD pity him ).
thinking back now,
i wasnt a good person.
as in,
a friend,
a classmate,
a close friend,
a best friend,
perhaps a student too.
i seriously dont know why do i care so much about how other people think about me
and all that stuff.
and,
my conclusion for my friendship is correct.
every good friend will leave as soon as i notice they are my good friends.
leave as in
realtionship starting to fade fade fade...
everything is correct.
o2jam friends were very good friends.
after few months,
faded.
anngie and deborah.
yea good friends in school.
now?
schools out.
that time,
when we were very good very good,
i got yumey maaaaaad.
and she went MAAAAAAAAAAD.
seriously mad lah.
but then she forgived me i guess.
i felt very BAAAAAAAAAAAD.
serious.
i dont show it thats all.
and and, i hate standard six lunch.
sitting with the same bunch of people everyday happily,
sooner people are running away.
why actually?
i always put the blame on me, myself, and i.
yeah it IS me.
i need friends, true ones.
and, they dont appear.
when they do, they gotta leave.
sigh me.

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